The Point of a Doubt

Speaking of close and good friends... There came a time that I have come to know friends that really became close to me... But not all of them are close to me at once. Some took months, some took a year, and some took 2 years. Nevertheless, it didn’t matter to me whether or not we became friends for a short period of time, what matters most is that they are real to me... Be real... That’s right, they must be real so that we can become good friends and our friendship will last forever- or maybe not forever, but for a long period of time.

There was this girl whom I became so close to... She was really the first close friend I have ever had. She’s nice and very helpful and intelligent too. She was a hardworking student and her personality is good too. I was never attached to her, by the way. I could define our friendship as an air... You can feel it, but you can’t see it. I don’t know why I’d define it like that, but that’s the most appropriate term to describe it. No more, no less. Anyway, going back to the point of this story, she showed me that everything in this world can not just be acquired with just one swipe of your hand; you must also work for it. Working is tiresome, but achieving what you have worked hard is worth it. This is what I have told myself after learning that she is definitely right. For me to achieve my goals in life, I must work hard for it. How poignant could my life be? At 2^nd year high school, everything seemed to mean a lot to me, knowing her made me look for greater things that my mind could ever imagine... I started looking things beyond what I can see... It changed the outlook in my life... And I loved it... I enjoyed it....

You can like the way you’re living...

You can live the way you like...

...Nowadays...

A song in the movie “Chicago” made an impression to me. Yes, the lyrics are definitely right... For me, it means that you are empowered by the choices you make. It’s up to you whether to make your life miserable or not. It all depends on you.

If you don’t want life to play tricks around you, then you must not play tricks with it. You must respect yourself and have prudence in life.

“Prudence is a virtue... But it’s not mine.”

Someone from my life said that, only, Patience is the real word--- not Prudence. But anyways, let’s just go back to the point. As what I have said earlier, Prudence is needed in your life, but it never really works for me- I never tried though. I play safe, but not having the “Prudence” needed in my life...

...And so I learned the biggest lesson I have ever learned. Mistakes count even a little one- it changes you and makes you mad. It will make you regret everything. And I did really regret something in my life. There came a time that something in my life made me ask a question- a question that I can’t seem to find the answer. What I believe is that the question I am facing is not to be answered by just a simple Yes or No. Not by the shook of my head, and not by the expression of my face... It is to be answered with lots of courage in myself- and so this question had not been answered by yours truly. And even though I faced lots of questions when I was a kid, it seemed that my experience is not really enough to find the right words to answer the question: “Who am I?”